I am sitting in the dark looking out the window on how the white snow lighten up the dark sky. It reminded me of our wedding and how your white (semiwhite) dress lighten up my dark suit and my life
Yesterday when you were waiting at the bottom of and with "tranquility "after having a steeper "drop" and recovering faster and more confident, made me lighten up and realize how strong and competent woman you are and how proud I am of you and with you. I raced for the kids whom now were out of sight and when I caught up with Lydia at the bottom asking where her sister is. She said she doesn't know because you told her "never look back" and I know by experience looking back makes you fall and you gave her a big lesson. Turning my head around looking for her and my anxiety melted down seeing the two of you sliding together down the hill, your white coat lighten up even the white snow, I truly enjoyed you coming down elegantly with her and the scene was just beautiful to watch. I once again feel blessed having you in my life, while I was focusing for the finish line to find the kids there, you were the one who looked around covering my blind spots, and making sure no one in our family is falling behind and bringing us all together.
Love you eshgh, with all the ups and downs, looking forward to sliding down the slopes of life with you smoothly and elegantly and never looking back. I know confident more than ever that with you by my side it is a peace of cake. Love you to the 9990 peak and higher

Slope road

از بالابر اسکی پیاده شدیم. اسکی ها رو زدیم رو دوش و رفتییم بالا، . تو‌برف با اون کفشای سنگین سریع نمیشد سریع راه رفت. به بالا رسیدیم. یه نگاه به‌مسیر پیش رو کردم کردم، مسیر پر پیچ و خمی بود و‌طولانی‌‌. اسکیهارو از دوشم رو برف انداختم و کنار هم مثل عدد یازده‌ مرتب کردم و کفشام رو جا زدم. یه نگاه به عقب کردم جا پای سنگینی کفشای اسکی رو برف که به موازات ونزدیک به هم و به فاصله کوتاهی هم رو دنبال کرده بودن منو یاد دفتر مشق بچگیم افتادم. انگار بارها عدد ۱۱ رو رو سفیدی برف نوشته بودی. گفتی اماده ای؟ گفتم اره. گفت پس بزن بریم.